What can’t the narcissist let go of needing revenge. It has been over 5 years since I left and
divorced him. He has remarried and moved
on, yet it seems he cannot let go of his incessant need to prove to the world
I’m a crazy ogre so he can be devillainized and all in the world will be set
right again; his tarnished armor will shine bright and the mask of illusion
will be firmly back in place. I have
read and been told that narcissist don’t forget, they like revenge, and that my
“outing” of him added to his narcissistic injury. My “outing” was what I shared with family and
a few close friends as to why I left and 4 years of sharing with a domestic
violence support group. I feel the real
“outing” to him was my education in understanding the narcissistic personality
disorder; how they think and having the vocabulary to call by name the tactics
he uses to abuse. I exposed him not to
the world but to myself. I saw beyond
the illusion and façade; he was unmasked and vulnerable and that is not a
position a narcissist likes to be in.
I was reading all of the email exchanges between us and the
one common thing is that his anger is constant.
They contain blame, threats, character assassination, and he always
refers to the delusional realty I live in.
I’m delusional and crazy so anything I say can have no truth or
fact. It is interesting how everything
he ever did has been diminished or erased and our history re-written. I am the villain and he is the poor
victim.
His plot for revenge will be through our child; it is the
only thing still connecting us. I have
been told I’m an unfit mother since the day she was born. He has used parental alienation since our
child’s memory serves her. My daughter
is 16 and I’ve been struggling with her for 4 years and he’s using this
struggle to extract his revenge. I asked
for help in getting our daughter to see a therapist and his reaction was an
email to our daughter “You don’t need counseling, your mother is poisonous and
you need to get a way from her. She lives
in her own reality, lies, and is a miserable person.” The irony is that he told me in an email I would have to live with myself for destroying the the father/daughter relationship with lies and manipulation and yet that's exactly what he did!
So, how many years of wasted energy will he put into
discrediting me to our child, my family and a few select friends so that he can
wear the crown of “the wronged, hurt victim?”